Difficult choices

Times when you have to say no to something you really wanted.
Times when your heart is yearning for one thing and your head is highlighting all the reasons not to.
Times when reason has to take precedence over emotions.
Times when what you get makes you desire more and what you give seems so insignificantly small.
Time to let go and watch. If it ever comes back to you, then it´s yours to keep and enjoy, even if for a while.
If not, you can hold unto the memories and believe that it just might have found a fitting abode.
I wanted it so badly... I still do, but I had to say no.

The way your heart sees me.

When you look at me with your heart,
a song goes off in my head,
and a smile warms its way to every part of me.
My heart reaches up to meet yours.
When you look at me with your heart,
You see all that I am
and all that I want to be.
When you look at me with your heart.
I know what you see and I like what you see.
When you look at me with your heart,
I love the way you look at me with your heart,
Thank you for letting your heart look at me the way it does.
With a song in my head and a twinkle in my eyes,
I see and love you,
because I look back at you with my heart.

Santa came around early.

Life is truly full of surprises and can shove some unexpected things in your face.
I looked for you without knowing exactly what it was I was looking for. I was almost on the brink of giving up  and then, suddenly..
You came to me as one of life´s really pleasant surprises, and even though it might be too soon to tell, you just might be what I didn´t even know that I desprately needed, and it´s not even my birthday yet.
The limitations abound but I only wish to enjoy this gift of life, and hope that by the time my birthday gets here, you my present, would have only gotten better.
Thank you for being ever so gentle, ever so kind and ever so sweet.
Thank you for coming along with me.
Thank you for finding me.
We´ve only just started... and for as long as you´ll be here, you´ve got almost all of me.

... and about time too!

When you called me yesterday, after a long break in communication, what came to my mind was, "... and about time too!". At first, I wasn´t sure what to expect, but then, finding our way to the beautiful friendship we´ve built over the years is proving to be easier than I dared to think it could be. Effortlessly, we slided back into conversation from where we stopped months ago.
Talking to you is easy and fun and beautiful. Sharing with you seems the only natural thing to do. Opening up appears to be the only possible option. Listening to you is a confirmation that the best things in life are free after all.
Above everything else, after all is said and done, I am your friend and we can always come back to us, no questions asked (well, maybe just a few).

Go figure....!

Me, my hormones and I.

It´s not that time of the month, and  my hormones seem to have suddenly gone haywire... I´m craving lemonade like it´s going out of business. I suddenly can´t understand what´s so special about chocolate. I look at my husband and I have not the faintest inkling how I  ended up with the dear man. The sound of my phones ringing makes me want to scream. Even my computer screen has no attraction whatsoever for me. The weather seems unbearable and I have absolutley no urge to be in contact with anything or anyone who even remotely resembles or reminds me of the human race.

How bad can it get? I´m not depressed, technically... I´m not sad or bereaved... Things seem to going rather well for me at the moment, well, mostly. I have nothing to complain about, well, nothing except my hormones, which is why the word, "Hormonal imbalance" now looks like a life saver. At least, it closely qualified as a relatively safe definition for this wierd feeling.