When All Is Said And Done.

I'm not in any hurry to stop living.
Neither do I want to repeat the same mistakes.
I don't know if I've learnt any lessons at all
But when all is said and, I have no regrets.

There are days when I feel a certain heaviness in my heart,
Days when I feel like I have nothing more to give,
Days when I can't help but struggle with all the what ifs,
Then, there are days when I'm lost in the world of dreams,
Dreams of being a princess still.
But when all is said and done, I am thankful for all I've been given.

And, today, I felt like I can no longer give more than I have,
I don't want to be a martyr anymore,
I don't see to fathom the chaos that occasionally rages inside.
And, sometimes, I see with absolute clarity
That my life is all about giving.
The gods seem to be always on my side,
And when all is said and done, the pains, the chaos 
and the grace to give are what make my story what it is.

The hands of my clock can not be turned back,
Decisions I took can not be reversed.
I can't wish anything away and maybe I shouldn't try.
There are things I might never find answers to,
Maybe all for the better.
For I am who I am because of all that I've seen and lived.
And when all is said and done, I like who I am.